When I walk into a room and my baby starts giggling and smiling, it melts my heart.
When I go into her nursery in the morning and pick her up out of her crib and she wraps her little arms around my neck and gives me a hug, it makes my day.
When I hold her in my arms and she looks up at me with her big innocent eyes, it fills me with joy.
So I often think, will she always love me this way?
Her love for me is so unconditional right now. I’ve done nothing to screw things up. It’s a clean slate. A perfect relationship. And I wish it would never change.
But who am I kidding?
I know over time as she gets older and I get older (gulp!) and life gets more complicated, of course our relationship will change. It will evolve and deepen. But it will also involve conflict.
Because of course we’ll disagree. Even argue. Definitely argue. We’re a mother and a daughter afterall!
Right now it’s so perfect that I’m trying to savor it. Memorize it. Burn it into my brain so when she’s a teenager and undoubtedly hating on me, I can reflect back on this time.
Because never again will I get this level of unconditional, trusting, innocent love.